Sunday, October 30, 2011

Providing Balance

While most TIs dream of spending just a few precious minutes, in a row, without pain or freaky symptoms, I have purposely tried to downplay that aspect, here on my blog. Which, I woke up with the realization this morning, gives non TI readers an incomplete, and perhaps inaccurate impression of these conditions. (Toxic Injuries encompass a large variety of conditions and causal factors.) As one of the reasons for writing this is to help others understand TIs, I suppose I should occassionally include a "Reality Check."

Part of what reminded me was the amount of times I found myself apologizing for my bad spelling errors, typos, and apparent failure to proof read on other blogs I participate in. Normals might see those things as "sloppy, lazy, ignorant, careless." For me, and I know for many other TIs, we have to let those go, and be happy to just get our thoughts down on the page.

Like me, many suffer myoclonic jerks, tremors and shaking. The toxic damage includes muscle coordination and control. So typing becomes a physical struggle. Then, there are the visual disturbances. I'm currently going through a period where my vision has degraded, it gets intermittently worse and parts of the field are obscured or occluded. It changes so rapidly, I can't keep up with it. The brain tries to fill in the blank spots by projecting what 'should be there,' Everybodies brain does it. In the spot where the optic nerve enters the back of your eyeball, there are no receptors. So your brain fills in the picture. That's where we got the term "a blind spot." Right now, it seems as though I have a lot of them. Like many TIs I've talked to, we can read something over 15 times and not "see" the errors that are actually before our eyes. I get real tired of this kind of freaky crap!

When I write official papers, I literally proof read them almost a hundred times. I also send them out to editors, who I do the same service for. We hope to catch each others mistakes. Since we're all TIs, it's still a little hit and miss. At this point, some of you are asking, "Why don't you send them to normals?" All our papers revolve around toxic injury... Normals get sick of reading our stuff. Its not part of their lives, they have their own struggles, and they don't have the same urgent motivation that we do.

The other factor that adds to our poor typing skills is the neural impairment that we get from exposures. Forming sentences, choosing words, on toxed days this is one of my most frustrating struggles. As a child I was speaking in complete sentences before I was a year old. I had always scored in the 99th percentile for communication and vocabulary. Now, some days, I even struggle to form a short 4 word sentence. (I keep pushing though, that's how you regrow neural pathways...) Then, there's the 'soap bubble' aspect. When we get a complete thought, it's there for such a short time, and then, pop! It's gone. So we have to type fast, before we forget it. O.k., as fast as we can. Sigh, not the best scenario. Then, add to that the new iOS 5 update, that has made my touch screen crazy. It toes (originally typed 'types)letters I don't even touch, just get near and doesn't type ones I do touch. I'm still trying to determine if I'm hitting the wrong keys or it's actually typing the key adjacent to the one I'm touching. I don't look at my fingers when I type, so after all rose (originally typed 'those) years of typing 80 WPM and not looking, it's hard to make myself look. But I can blame the 'upgrade' for the wild word substitutions. One time I typed 'comparable' and it substituted 'oar.' (when I proof read this, I noticed those two other strange substitutions), huh? I'm also noticing that if you type something in wrong so many times, it accepts it as a desired spelling. With all my legitamate typos, my spell checking feature is gone! Then, the other part of my brain damage is that I can look right at words I used to know how to spell and won't even know if they're misspelled or not! FRUSTRATION THROUGH THE ROOOOOOOF!!!! Pant, pant, Anyway, that's probably enough of my reality for the day.

Tuesday, October 25, 2011

Side trip for Raw Dog Food Recipes

I've been Participating in the discussions at this really excellent site called It is created and maintained by the very dedicated Mike Sagman. The community is blessed with some really great and knowledgable members on various things "dog." A poster today asked for raw dog food recipes. Well, I didn't have the web addresses anymore; I deleted them when I was so sick because, looking at all that stuff hurt my eyes and I had to cut down on the clutter. Boy have I regretted that since! But as TIs we do what we have to, to get by.

So, while anyone could do what I did and run an internet search, I thought I'd just post them here, to get 'cha started. You-all can also go to an ebook seller and get various books by some great, knowledgable authors, for very little money. Bear in mind, I changed these recipes, adjusting them for toxicity. To get the real ones, you'll have to hunt them down. A few pioneers in ths diet are mentioned from the original websites recipes, search those names, and another mentor that I like is he'll let you download hs recipes for free. Hope this helps. GFETE

Raw dog food recipes

Recipe 1

1 pound lean ground turkey
1 cup of raw carrots, broccoli, red peppers and squash, mixed
2 cups of plain yogurt
1 tbsp. 500 IU fish oil
1 tbsp. 500 IU Alfalfa 
1 tbsp. 500 IU Vitamin E
1 orange

Prepare your dog's meal
Chop the vegetables into small, bite-size pieces. Mix all ingredients into a large bowl and add a 1/2 cup of water. Serve raw. Switch things up and use ground beef or ground or chopped chicken. 

This recipe makes about 9 cups of food, more than enough for one day's rations for a small dog. Daily ration: 1 to 2 cups per day for a toy breed; 4 cups per day for a small breed; 6 or 7 cups for a medium breed; about 8 cups for a large breed; and about 9 cups for a giant breed.


Recipe 2

Raw Food And Supplements
Many types of raw food can be beneficial for your dog. Some of the choices include meaty raw bones that are half bone and half meat. Chicken necks, wings and back, lamb and pork neck bones and turkey necks are good choices. Pulped fruits and vegetables, garlic and raw eggs can be included. Omega 3 fatty acids can be added as supplements; olive oil. Other good supplements are vitamins C and E, kelp powder, alfalfa powder, brewer's yeast, and apple cider vinegar.

Raw Food Recipes
Many creative and nutritional recipes are available.A good raw food recipe should provide nutrients, protein, fiber, carbohydrates, riboflavin, potassium, beta carotene, fat, iron, and vitamins A and C. Here is a good recipe:

Ingredients: 1 ounce liver, 2½ ounces chicken, 3/8 ounce sterilized food grade bone meal (grass fed source), ½ cup Brussels sprouts, ½ teaspoon olive, cold pressed, extra virgin, oil, ½ cup sliced carrots, pinch of cooked garlic. 
All the ingredients should be washed. Peel the carrot and cut up, along with cutting the Brussels sprouts. Cut off the skin off the chicken and then cut into small pieces. Cut the liver. Mix the vegetables and meat together and then add the oil, garlic and bone meal


Recipe 3

BARF diet
A raw food diet, coined the BARF (Biologically Appropriate Raw Food) diet by Dr. Ian Billinghurst, DVM, consists of 50 percent raw meaty bones and 50 percent raw meat, which needs to include organ meat such as liver, heart and kidneys. Because dogs are omnivores, pureed vegetables must be added; the vegetables must be pureed because dogs don't chew much and can't digest whole vegetables. Eggs, yogurt and omega-3 fatty acids round off a complete homeopathic diet.

When feeding raw meat, vary the protein source for your dog. Good protein sources include turkey, beef, chicken, lamb, rabbit and venison. If your dog is allergic to a certain protein source, avoid that type. Find organic meat that isn't polluted with chemicals used on many factory farms.

Vegetables can be raw or cooked, but include as wide a variety as possible with each meal. Vegetable sources include asparagus, broccoli, brussels sprouts, carrots, cauliflower, celery, green beans, okra, pumpkin and squash. 

To add more homeopathic nutrition to your dog's meal, Dr. Richard Pitcairn recommends adding this healthy powder to all homemade recipes: 2 cups brewer's yeast, 1 egg, 1/4 cup kelp powder, 4 tbsp. bone meal powder and 1,000mg vitamin C.

Build your dog's diet by combining any of the above proteins with any of the combined vegetables in a 3 to 1, meat to vegetable ratio. Add a raw egg and omega-3 fatty acid tablet from any local grocery store for complete nutrition. A 50-pound dog can eat about 1 pound of meat mixture per day; adjust accordingly to your dog's weight.

For a simple dinner, mix 6 oz. chopped meat, which includes organ meat, with 2 oz. ground vegetables listed above. Add 1 egg, 1 omega-3 capsule and a handful of fruit, such as apples, bananas or berries. Mix thoroughly and add 1 spoonful of grapefruit seed extract to kill bacteria. Top with 1 spoonful of organic oil, which provides twice the energy of other food sources. This makes one serving.

Though grains are considered unnecessary for dogs, raw Gluten Free oats can help your dog digest raw meat. If his stools seem a little hard, add a couple spoonfuls of GF oats or oatmeal.

A raw recipe with grains recommended by Dr. Pitcairn includes 5 cups raw oats, 3 pounds raw turkey, ¼ cup vegetable oil, 1 cup cooked vegetables, 6 tbsp. healthy powder mentioned above and 4 tsp. bone meal. Cook the oats and combine with the rest of the ingredients. This makes about five servings for a small dog, three servings for a medium dog and a little less for a large dog.

Difficulty: Moderately EasyInstructions
Things You'll Need:
Whole raw chicken, beef, pork or other meat
Raw bones
Starchy vegetables like carrots or sweet potatoes
Fruits like whole apples or pears
Eggs with shell
Yogurt, cheese or other dairy product
Choose a whole meat to serve as the basis of your dog's meal, such as chicken, beef or pork. Leave any bones intact and place it in your dog's bowl. If meat cost is an issue for you, ask your butcher about "throwaway" cuts of meat like chicken feet and organ meat. You can often buy these undesirable cuts cheaply.
Cut up raw, starchy vegetables and fruits. Mix these vegetables and fruits with a dairy product like yogurt. Put the mixture on top of the meat in your dog's bowl.
Crack eggs on top the raw food in your dog's bowl, and leave the egg shell in the bowl as well. Serve the raw food mixture to your dog at mealtime.


Recipe 4

1 lb. raw ground meat

2 cups ground or pureed vegetables

2-4 oz. raw organ meat (liver, gizzards, etc.)

half cup apple cider vinegar

2-3 cloves garlic

1 T ground kelp

half cup plain yogurt

3 eggs with shells

palmful of parsley

Mix all ingredients (chop, puree, or leave in large chunks, depending on your dog's preference) and store in the refrigerator or freezer. This mixture should account for 20-40% of your dog's daily diet.

The remaining 60-80% of your raw-food-eating dog's daily requirement should consist of raw meat and bones (backs, necks, carcasses). These items should range from $0.00 - $2.00 per pound, depending on how friendly you are with your butcher.

In raw conclusion...

Of course, percentages of meat to vegetables is approximate. But most raw food experts agree - the most important part of a raw dog food diet is the meat. Our furry friends are carnivores, and eat little or no vegetables in the wild.

Benefits of a raw dog food diet include fewer, and more compact stools; muscle development in the jaw, neck, and shoulders (resulting from the chewing required by the meat and bone diet); better digestion due to slower, labored chewing; and an extended lifespan - thanks to an adherence to a natural, unprocessed, diet.

Have an aversion to feeding raw meat? Is your dog a scarfer, not skilled at chewing bones? Then debone it! Cook it! Read on for recipes that cater to the more evolved canine.

Organic, Homemade Dog Food - Good Food in the Nude

Recipe 5

half cup organic cottage cheese

half cup organic grated carrots

4-5 organic skin-on raw chicken wings (or cooked organic chicken, with bones removed)

Pile up your dog's bowl (using our weight calculator) with these yummy ingredients and watch 'em fly.

Recipe 6

3 cups ground buffalo (lean)

2 eggs

three quarter's of a cup grated mixed vegetables, including zucchini, broccoli, carrots, and sweet potato (I don't use sweet potato as dogs don't need carbs...)

half cup cottage cheese

Substitute ground turkey, chicken, or beef, if desired. Mixing meats is not recommended.

More Main Dish Recipes - Good Food with Attitude

Now that you have learned about the basics of home cooking for your dog, you can stir up these and many other recipes of your own creation. Here are just a few to spark your imagination. Remember, all foods should be served at room temperature, and left-overs may be stored in the refrigerator, tightly covered, for up to 4 days. Or, individual servings may be frozen for future defrosting and feeding.
Canine Casserole Recipe

Recipe 7
 15 minutes
1 cup cooked chicken or turkey

half cup steamed vegetables (carrots, broccoli, squash, spinach, sweet potato)

Combine all ingredients.

Recipe 8
 40 minutes
2/3 cup meat of choice, cubed

three quarters of a cup carrot and sweet potato, cubed

quarter tsp. garlic powder

Add all ingredients, except rice, to large pot and boil. When vegetables are tender, add rice and cook until done. Add more water as needed during cooking.

Recipe 9

Pupper Fish

$4.50, 30 minutes
1 can salmon, deboned ( lots of people feed the bone, but I can't bring myself to it. I also have one dog that prefers it just ever so slightly cooked.)

1 beaten egg

1 Zune

1 carrot

Cottage cheese or plain yogurt

Combine salmon, egg, and cornmeal. Form into patties and press into more cornmeal. Sautee in a canola sprayed pan until cooked through. Chop and steam the vegetables. Cut salmon patties into small bites and combine with the vegetables. If the mixture seems too dry, add a bit of cottage cheese or yourt.

Recipe 10

Basic Raw Dog Food Recipe 
For A 20-25# Dog

1/2 cup raw meat (ground poultry, beef, lamb, organ meats)
1/2 cup raw pureed vegetables (variety!)
1 teaspoon bonemeal powder (double for puppies and pregnancy)
1/4 teaspoon ascorbic acid powder with bioflavinoids (vitamin C)
1/4 teaspoon kelp powder
1/4 teaspoon minced garlic (not powder)
1 teaspoon oil mixture (2 teaspoons with poutlry)


My basic recipe

2 lbs. Ground meat
1/2 - 1 C. Minced, lightly cooked veggies, (cruciferous, or carrots, occassionally a little cooked spinach) 
2 eggs, with crushed shell
1/2 - 1 cup farmer, pot or cottage cheese or sour cream (something dairy with live acidophilus etc. Or use capsules, opened.)
1 Tbl bone meal powder 
3 kelp capsules, emptied
1 Tbl. Parsley or oregano
1 teas. Garlic powder 
optional, vitamin C powder and brewers yeast

Mix well, being careful not to cause the bonemeal to fly up, press into patties and freeze. Aprx. weight of patty, 4 oz. Store in ziplock bags in freezer. 50 lb. Dog gets 4/day. 6 lb. Dog gets 1 smaller one or 2/3 per day (2 - 3 oz. Per day)

Vary this with raw meaty bones and cooked veggies as available.A

Foods to be Avoided

Certain foods should be avoided completely, including:

Grapes and raisins, Onions, Mushrooms, Avocado, Hulled foods (corn, beans, peas), Tomatoes, Fruit, fruit pits and seeds, Macadamia nuts, Walnuts, Chocolate, Cooked bones, Coffee and tea, Yeast, Nutmeg, Salt, White foods (white bread, white rice), Foods included in the nightshade category may cause problems for some dogs (eggplant, peppers, tomatoes, white potatoes, iceberg lettuce, and raw spinach), and for some dogs, dairy can be pretty scary.

 Kicking Portion Distortion

Not sure about your dog's appropriate feeding portion? 2-3% of total body weight is appropriate for most dogs. Very young dogs may need a bit more, while older or inactive dogs require less.
To calculate, multiply his weight, in pounds, by 16 to get his total body weight in ounces. Feed him 2-3% of that weight, daily. For example, if your dog weighs 50 pounds...

50 lb. x 16 oz. = 800 oz. (total body weight in ounces)

800 oz. x .02 = 16 oz. (total daily minimum food weight)


800 oz. x .03 = 24 oz. (total daily maximum food weight)

You may choose to divide your dog's daily food into two feedings, or you may want to stick with one daily meal. Whatever your dog is accustomed to is fine.

Or, you may choose to count calories...

Dogs that weigh-in at less than 20 pounds generally require 40 calories per pound per day. For instance, your 12 pound Yorkie will require approximately 480 calories per day (12 lb. x 40 cal. = 480 cal. per day).

Dogs that tip the scales at over 100 pounds usually need about 15 calories per pound of body weight, per day. For example, a 120 pound Great Dane will need roughly 1800 calories per day (120 lb. x 15 cal. = 1800 cal. per day).

On average, dogs require about 25 calories per pound of body weight, per day. If in any doubt, less is always more. Moderate canine body weight has proven to extend the lives of our best friends. And who doesn't want even just one more day?

Saturday, October 22, 2011

Rosie, Service Dog Update

So Rosie is now almost a year old. While she is ready for her Canine Good Citizen certification, AKC doesn't do Fragrance Free events... Not quite up to ADA standards. I have spoken to them about it, but I've given them some time to mull it over and haven't recontacted them yet. Its on my list.

I finally was able to get an e-version of Teamwork II, by Stewart Nordenson, for training your own service dog. Stewart was disabled himself and the book is excellent! You can get an e copy of Teamwork and Teamwork II directly from or Amazon. Well worth the price!!

Rosie now puts away clean laundry: she's working on putting away dirty laundry. She can remove sox, retrieve items, like phone, pens, remotes. She's working on "find Help." She can find Ron, Justin and Alex if they are nearby. We will be working on this more in the "Find Help" catagory. For that she will bring them back to me. She alerts to fragrance, and if I'm crashing. She backs, holds, takes, gives, waits, stays, heals, gets, comes front, sits, downs and finds. She of course stays out of the kitchen unless asked in, and lays down next to me quietly when eating. We will be working on Under so she can go under tables at restuarants, not that we'll use it, but she'll need to do that to pass any test we take.  She differentiates between sox, ball, squirrel (a toy), and phone. She also braces and pulls. We are working on closing doors and drawers, as well as putting things in various places by command, like hand, lap, drawer. We will also be working on pick up clothes to hand to me on days I'm so swollen I can't retrieve anything I drop on the floor, or so she can pull up pants.  we will also work on removing pants. All these things sure make painful, swollen days a lot easier!

Top Dog does certify service dogs. Its Not required, but my one concern about them is that they require spayed or neutered. No exceptions. I'm not sure I want to spay. I don't want puppies, its just that dogs are healthier if they keep the organs that God designed them with. Surgeries are toxic.  I want to keep her as healthy as possible. Since I don't go anywhere. Its not so much an issue. I understand why dogs that go into public need to be spayed, but I can't go into public. I'm going to mull that one over for a while... If I do spay, it will be around 2 years of age when she's fully developed, and only a partial. I haven't got the Rabies vac yet. Still looking for one with out adjuvants. They are hugely toxic, and she had that bad reaction to Parvo/distemper.

oh, yeah, she's started on pheasant retrieval, and sheep herding... Here's a couple more pics. ;^) One with her buddy, Jessie.

Monday, October 17, 2011

Summer Summery

Sorry I left you for so long. For awhile I had both my children home and my son-in-law. We were juggling farm work, surveying, water rights and moving Ryan out of his college house, as well as prepping it for the next renters and property repairs. Ryan was looking for work while living with us, and in case you don't remember, my daughter and son-in-law moved back in, while she works a temporary research position nearby. I, as the mother, farm/office manager orchestrate the whole thing. I feel very much like a conductor. Or perhaps the ringleader at a circus.

For a while there, I was doing all the cooking, cleaning and dishes. It had to stop. It was too much. So I commanded a rotating schedule. That worked well but there are so many changes, that it keeps getting upset. It's still in effect, however, I'm doing a lot more cooking because everyone comes and goes except me. I'm also,doing more of the dishes. The only person that rivals me for "sink front time" is my son-in-law, Justin. It's been pretty darnhectic. Alex and Ron leave for work early and get back late. Ryan and Justin did farming and surveying in the mornings. Justin works for a shipping company, so he works swing, and Ryan would do engineering and water rights, as well as submit resemés, during all other hours.

I certainly got a close up view of the difficulty of finding a job in this economy! I watched my highly qualified son apply for hundreds of jobs. Not having a real job, as opposed to working for his parents, was tearing him up. Not having a job bugs me too. So I understand how the unemployed feel. I'd love a job, but the injustices and limitations of this disability forced me out of the job market. I still keep looking for something that could accommodate my disability.

Even with all the extra work that having more bodies in the house brings, I still thought I'd be better now. After all, I do get lots of help. You remember that I was giving myself IVs, so I dn't have to get exposed at the Dr.s? That works great. The kids- [3 adults :^)   ]  have been a tremendous help. They've taken over all the grocery shopping and much of the household shopping. They run all the errands for both Ron and I. The boys have cleaned up huge amounts of the Farm, and Alex collects my organic produce from a nearby organic producer. That's been great!

So what's the problem? It's me! The better I feel, the more I want to do and the harder I push. Of course, that leads to exposures and wearing myself out. I told you that Alex was picking up produce, right? I canned 10 canner loads of salsa, and the same of stewed tomatoes. Justin was my chopper. He's better than a dice-o-matic. He'd do the jalapeños and onions before going to work. Yep, more energy, because I have more help, equals more that I try to get done. And since Alex was here and loves cherry pie as much as her father, the two of them built scarecrows and netted the cherry trees (something that I used to do, but can't because the orchard is by the Evils property line.) They did it so the magpies couldn't get them all. She and I processed cherries for days! Justin helped.

Justin hadn't learned to cook before he married my daughter, and she didn't have time to teach him while writing her thesis, so now that there's a rotation, I'm teaching him to cook. We're calling him "the man of a thousand fish dishes." He loves salmon and we have tons, as Ron loves to hunt and fish. Because he works evenings, he normally cooks one day a weekend. Justin is turning out some really tasty and creative dishes. His hollandaise sauce is incredible!

At one point I was feeling so much better that I started up a weaving project I'd begun and had to put down a year ago. I was doing it in those little time bites that we break everything into. The important part was that I had the brains back to do it again. That's one of the ways I measure my progress- how much and what I can create. It doesn't take a whole lot of mental health to get the laundry run. It takes a great deal more to figure out a pattern and warp up a loom. Yeah! I was doing pretty good. *read that with a smug smile on my face.*

Part of my recovery has been the fact that I haven't had hardly any trouble with Mr. Evil. You see, both my boys are big. They both have powerful chests and shoulders. Mr. Evil is a bully and a coward. (I posted this pic, so you can see how big they are. Sheep shearing was another activity that I love and got to do again with their help! Such a wonderful summer!) Anyway, Mr. Evil has hardly bothered me at all. Only when no one else was around, and that's not very often. Of course, I still had Jessie (Ryan's German Shepard x husky) and Rose is almost a year. They've helped deter Mr. Evil from his malicious behavior.

But, all that activity takes its toll. September was a whirl wind! Ryan secured a job in Texas, and he started making arrangements to move down there. His girlfriend flew up to PDX at the end of the month, and after they visited the coast, they came over here so that we could meet her. She's the one. Poor child... Jumping head first into a toxin free family? cold turkey! well the girl has chutzpah!

So that was a huge deal, and we only had a week to prepare, once they decided she was coming. It was also the weekend before her birthday, so we wanted to honor her with a birthday celebration. My daughter, Alex made up a desert some time lat year and her husband named it. It's called, "Chocolate Cheesecake Squares of Fatness." It is so good. We made that in honor of Michele's birthday. They arrived, were here for a day, and then were gone. Michele, Ryan and Jessie, drove off into the rising darkness. Both Ron and I cried. Ron had moved Alex, when she left for Indiana. So he was able to feel like she was "safe," because he'd installed her. This time, his son wanted to be independent. Ron had to remain behind. Both things, Ryan leaving, and Ron out there roofing a porch through his tears, nearly broke my heart, again. It was a toxically hard weekend as well. Though Michele and Ryan tried very hard to help her be fragrance free, it wasn't doable in one week. I received some pretty big exposures.

Mid week after they left, someone had a chemical/petroleum spill up wind of me. It hit me at the back door when I was returning from potting Rosie and Sonya. Whatever it was started me hemoraghing. About that time we found out that the professors were coming for opening of pheasant season. Ah, our beloved professors. Only two came this year. It was a wonderful social event for me but I still got more exposures. The accumulation had my glutathione so used up, despite the shots, that I nosedived this last weekend, over an additional exposure. The crash was pretty bad. I ran through every trick I knew, even an extra shot, and it barely knocked it down. I am back to being grounded to my chair for a while.

I've noticed I either live life, or I write about it. I haven't seemed to be able to balance it yet. It has been a busy, glorious summer. I'm glad I found a few minutes to write you about it. Hopefully, I'll write you all about Rosie's progress and get on my desk top computer to add some pictures real soon. Bye for now!